Breathing Life In As If It Were My Last Breath

twoxten

it's my new lj.
i've bothered to add those that i've gotten rather attached to.
if you want to keep in contact then well add me! i'm itchin' for a good chattin'!

hope to see whomever reads this.

i'm planning of getting a new lj.
and as a person i feel like i'm branching out and i want a new user name for almost every account i had to start anew. if you have me on msn or my email. that'll still be the same because i'm rather attatched to that one. ;)
but my new lj will be a friends only and much much more personal and more frequently updated i hope.
don't worry i'll let you all know when this'll happen so everyone can all relax right now.

if you have name ideas i'm open to suggestions. i want it to be a long-lasting name. because i'll be sharing work of mine and like to watermark things with my username. so it's kind of like a company name.

sorry to all those who might be confused right now. i'm just rambling, kind of. whenever i get a new lj, things will make more sense then. and i'll make my final post on this one.

so for now i'll be on a hiatus? until further notice.


so here's a few floating ideas right now..

infintie.
vodka.shotz
xxPeppermint.Heart
chainedxx



there's this one idea i have but don't know how to.
twobyten
twoxten
two[by]ten

last night at the deli, working... it was oh-so-incredibly-BUSY! i think i was serving customers for nearly two hours straight. nothing else just slicing meats. it's never been like that before. but i kind of liked it. i wasn't really in the mood for doing much else. so then Jose said if it was going to be this busy for the rest of the night that i should just start cleaning now. so i did. i cleaned. made some pizzas because we ran out. then i cleaned some more. went on my break. read. reading a really good book right now. twilight by stephanie meyer. it's a vampire thing so of course i like it, right? after my break i cleaned some more. and then at eight POOF! the power went out in the entire store. with the power out we couldn't really do anything except clean so that's what we did. just kept on cleaning. i started to clean one of the slicers and just took my time. then i faced the products. i did that about twenty times last night just to waste time. then after about a half hour dan came by to tell us just to close the deli early since they probably wouldn't be able to fix the power in time, so we cleaned the other slicer. and that was that. then begun the facing until about ten after nine because i was still supposed to stay until my scheduled hour even though we were closed. when i got to the staffroom it was pitch black so this other girl had her cell phone and we were trying to use it as a flashlight. it was so funny. left the store. called kate while i was waiting to be picked up. stupid moment on my part because i could've waited inside the store but instead i chose to wait outside. so while i was on the phone with kate this guy comes up to me tells me not to cry and asks me if i have a light for his cigarette. i said no. he got really pissed, told me to fuck off then pulled a lighter out of his pocket and walked away. i was like....okay.

went home. ate. chatted online. slept.

saturday.
too hot.
too tired.
goodnight.

so after being nudged numerous times by *ahem, i think you know who you are...* i have decided to do something about it. i'm making a post and now since school is out i will try oh-so-very-hard (pfft. we all know how those turn out) to stay in touch.

i think a lot of it is that i've become an extremely introverted person lately. i enjoy being a hermit a little too much. i keep to myself. i don't enjoy talking, sharing stuff about me. i just like this whole alone time. i don't know. it sounds unhealthy a bit doesn't it? it's just the way i am. i've never been one who wants to go out and do things. but i feel like the least i could do is let it all out on lj.

so here's a catch up. school's over. got my report card. my marks?
biology IB 25 -> 81
chemistry IB 25 -> 84
english 10-1 -> 87
pure math 10 -> 85
science 10 -> 87
social studies 10 -> 91
french 20 -> 89
applied graphic arts 15 -> 86
jazz dance 25 -> 90

not too shabby. i guess i'm pretty proud. thank goodness for art options. which i don't get next year because of IB. friends encouraged me to try full IB and so here i am stuck with a full schedule without any options. grrrr.... oh well.

let's see next, work. i hate working on weekdays. i really enjoy sticking to working on weekends. but no. my manager has listening issues and totally disregards my preferences. it's crap. i then i was like, ok, sure if you schedule me on weekdays can i get the shifts from 11-4 or 11-3 because then i don't have to take the bus. to get to work, it's an hour bus ride which i think is ridiculous plus the price of bus fares, don't get me started. again with the listening issues. i go to work the next day and she's scheduled me for 12-5 and 1-5!!! oh yeah and she convienently gone on vacation so i can't talk to her. i really don't like working.

best part of the summer? harry potter. went to see it last night. it was so amazing!!! i honestly think it was the best of all the harry potter movies. the director david yates, i felt like he really captured the essence of harry potter. as for the new screenwriter, michael goldenberg i apologize to him. i really had my doubts at first since steve kloves the original screenwriter was doing so well since he had developed such a close relationship with JK. but goldenberg amazed me. he did a fantastic job of condensing 759 pages into 138 minutes while still keeping the core of order of the phoenix at bay. also i think all the actors have grown tremendously. i've never truly been an emma watson fan but even in this film it was quite good. i was thouroghly impressed.
and now to wait for the final book. eight days from now. i've stocked up on tissues. i'm ready for anything that JK decides to throw at me. i recently saw an interview with JK Rowling and her words scared me. it's not like none of us knew it was going to happen but to hear these next words come out of JK Rowling's mouth just put me into shock. "I think that Harry's story comes to quite a clear end in book 7" i know this has more than one meaning but still, i was aghast! i couldn't believe it! well at least not with the conclusion i was jumping to. i know this has multiple meaning but still...!!! either way i'm still really really excitied to read the final book. i remember as i was reading throught the cirque du freak series by darren shan i couldn't wait until the end and when i finally finished i was so sad. the ending was nothing the way i would have ever imagined. and as i was reading it was so thrilling. but then whe i finished it was over no more waiting. and i don't know if it's going to be like this for harry potter or not. i'd really like to think not because harry potter has become such a huge epic among the fans that there are still ways to keep his story alive.

anyways. i think i'm all typed up for now.

i am a bad bad person.
i know i'm sorry.
lately i've been doing the facebook thing and the mog thing so for that i apologize.
i'm coming back now. and i'll keep everone up to date more than ever. full fun details to come and oh oh maybe pictures!!!!

haha.
doubtful.
i mean about the pictures.
ok so i'm basically just rambling now.
but that's why you all love me right?
maybe not love but at least bear with me and my ramblings.
i get told that they're cute or at least amusing.

that's what i'm here for. amusement.
peace.

WOOOOOO!
Tomorrow morning, or tonight if you prefer since it is at 1:30 am i'm leaving!
Don't worry i'll be back monday night.

I'm going to spokane to run bloomsday.
woooO!

Some stupid people set my school on fire this morning. there were fires in two places. the library and a classroom. now school is closed until Wednesday. this sucks.

TV Meme
1. Go to imdb.com and search for your 10 favorite shows.
2. Look for the 3 most awesome keywords.
3. Post them on LJ, and let your f-list guess your shows! YAY!

*crypt, cult, commando
*ex marine, forensic, spin off
*conspiracy theorist, university, FBI agent
*lesbian love, saga, superheroine
*disturbing, stop motion, pop culture
*magician, prison, investment scandal
*water tower, fast food, birth control
*bullet, science, coroner
*homosexual demon, neo noir, billionaire
*the coneheads, satire, live broadcast

here's a recipe for mudwater:

orange juice
root beer
and a little bit of coke.

thanks jose.
apparently it's supposed to be as revving as red bull or some other equivalent energy drink.
kind of scary.


another knowledgeable tidbit from jose...

grind rice in a coffee grinder when making sticky rice.

X)



ps. Mr G snores!

So i was on the computer and usually while on the computer i really don't need to wear my glasses so i put them down on the table. ten minutes later i need them again. {{during my computer time they fall to the floor without my noticing}} So looking to the table to grab my glasses i realize that they aren't there!!!
Do you know how hard it is to look for glasses? Becuase since they're lost, you're not wearing them so everything is blurry enough. So i spent a good twenty minutes looking everywhere for my glasses. i was extremely frustrated. I found an old pair of glasses so i decided to wear those temporarily. As soon as i put those on guess what i saw lying on the floor right beside me? MY GLASSES!!! grr....

My new iMac finally came!!!!!!

So this morning I heard on the news that a third-grade student was assulted in the bathroom of my school yesterday. Wha??? We didn't even hear about it yesterday! And it happened in the morning. So everyone found out on the news and it was so scary. That's all everyone talked about. And there were all these rumors about what was going to happen to our school next. Finally a letter came around explaining the situation and how they were taking action. The letter mentioned that no one was actually hurt and officials took action right away. During luch news of the true series of events leaked out. Two girls were going to bathroom when they saw a man inside. The man freaked and ran out, pushing one of the girls on his way out. That was it. And the news calls it assult?!? It caused a school-wide scare. Some thought that the girl even got sexually assulted! I mean it was a push. She wasn't hurt or anything. I mean it's important that we're aware that this happened so we know how to improve security at our school but honestly I think the media could let out a little more information. Or else everyone's going to think horribly of our school which is really a good school.

So today was the first day back at school after the Christmas break. I was not ready for that. I felt so disoriented today it wasn't a good feeling. I had no idea what was going on around me and nothing made sense. In english class we had some reading to do and as I was reading, none of the text was comprehending. I felt so stupid. Then we were supposed to commentate about it and I was all, "uhh...". Oh man, that was not the best. Social was easier on the brain. We talked, listened, and watched a video. It was all related to social though. Since we're learning about sovereignty the entire class was dedicated to Canada's sovereignty over the Northwest Passage up in the Arctic. Technically those waters do belong to Canada but it seems as though nobody else but us Canadians know this. Everyone else thinks that it's international waters but it's not! That belongs to Canada!!! Anyways lunch was my favourite because it was just as crazy as usual. Mostly of me wanting to be a dinosaur. French was probably the hardest to get back into. I didn't remember anything. I just jumbled things together and as I was working on my review package my head was just buzzing with confusion. Finally I made it to science. We got the whole class to work on a project. Our project is to create a technology that can improve the quality of life of those in a third world country such as Sierra Leone. We had this great idea to create a bundle/carrier/wrap/beddish-cradle all in one for the babies since infant mortality rate is so high. It's not as complex as it sounds. It's actually quite fascinating. But there is a slight problem in how each of my group members imagine what it's supposed to be like. That's the problem with group work , some people just have issues trying to accept ideas, listen, co-operate and such. No wonder I'm such a loner at times. I can't work with people. I find it stressful and frustrating at times.

I was supposed to start running again today so I tried but it's been so long since I last run so I think I managed to run for ten minutes. I feel so bad for it too. Tomorrow I'm going to try and make it to twenty minutes.

I have recently discovered the band Harry and The Potters.
They rock. So much.

My recommended songs by them:
The Foil (Draco Malfoy)
Follow the Spiders
Wizard Chess
The Yule Ball
Save Ginny Weasley
Ron Got a Howler

There's a lot of other good ones but i'll just list those for now.


I just love finding new bands. So if anyone knows any good bands and songs tell me!
i like to experience new music!!!

If that makes any sense at all but i've been working my ass off since november for this glorious holiday so i'm sorry for my inconveinient disappearences every so often. but here's some of the scoop since november.

November:
Working. Every weekend working so i could buy decent gifts this year. Seemed to work quite well. Tip to you though, next time you go to a deli be nice to whoever is slicing your meat for you. It's not always easy. I know i've come across some really rude customers and i was on the verge of snapping. "well safeway has that in their stores..." I bloody hate it when i hear that. I mean if safeway is so awsome than why don't you just go there instead?!?! sorry. i had to vent just a little. During the last two weeks of november i got all of my christmas shopping done. yes. done before december. WOOO! I got some pretty cool stuff but the hardest was my cousin all she wanted was clothes. But i swear there's only three types of shirts that she wears and she already has EVERY COLOR. It was so annoying. She won't wear tee shirts, tank tops, most shirts. She likes thin sweaters and turtlenecks. She won't wear prints or bright colors only neutral colors. So i found a sweater that she might not have yet. i got it in light gray. any other color may have been too much. Other than her the gifts were a breeze!

First week of december:
Christmas tree!!! Wrapping presents!!!

Next week:
Giving and recieving presents!!!

Now:
Did most of my christmas baking and gave them away in little tin boxes. Layer one was chocolate chip cookies, layer two were pinwheels, and layer three were florentine cookies and nut clusters to fill the empty spaces of the tin. I made it ALL myself. It felt good. I love baking.

Christmas is so close i'm so excited!!!

OMG OMG OMG.
I apologize BIG time for not posting in for like ever.
blame school and work. it's taking up ALL of my time.
but i promise promise promise (pinky swear) to keep up this time and if i don't just keep "nudge-ing" me until i do something.
so i'll do something more in-depth on wednesday but here's my early heads up.

VICKIE'S COMING BACK!!!!!

I feel so lost right now. I'm in the middle.
Always in the middle.
I need some organization in my life some guidance.
I don't what to do.
Something's missing form my life but I don't know what it is that I'm missing.
Something that'll put things back on track again.

I've done really good in the summer. Everything was going great.
Now, everything that i had it's slipping away.
I'm gaining weight again and i don't need a scale to tell me.
I see it. I feel it.
I'm feel so stupid too sometimes like what the hell am I thinking trying to be someone that i don't see myself being. Everyone says i'm smart but then why don't i feel smart. i don't understand what i'm doing. it frustrates me. i don't understand.

Just floating.
like driftwood on a balmy november.
it doesn't know where it's headed exactly it can only see so far.
it has a path. a path that is unpredictable.
it hardly knows where it's been it can't look behind it can only remember.
there is only perspective.

ok so i have no idea where that came from i just started typing random things that came into my head. I just feel overwhelmed right now even though i know my life is not even close to being defined as overwhelming. jeez. i just don't know anymore.